In the Twenty First

It was on the fourth of December. I was very happy in the twenty first. Something very interesting in life. You would have experienced it, but not the way i have. Few days, few weeks, few months of the blue, red, and dark sky. Feelings changed from day to day according to the state of this poor nature of the only one world. It was beautiful to look back. Haha it's so much fun when u find urself somewhere there u've never been n seen; y do u stand ur eyes like that and y do u close ur eyes? All of ur whole body is controlled only by one particular complicated thing; for only a bounded age of life anyway.

Lots of if i were flooded ur head; still only up to a bounded space. Nothing's ever everlasting haha. Even if u wana run the whole of ur life, u still can't do that coz of ur limited power. That nothing's not restricted only to ur phisical body. See even if u wana cry for just a whole day, u still can't do that for sure coz ur tears also dry up. You can't let out ur feelings for any circumstances. It's a sad side of life actually. Still, i dun believe in this undying sadness.

Isn't this life supposed to be for smiles? How do we wana smile by the way? when and where? haha i dunnoe. it's up to ur thinking. Some people says their lives're supposed to be for a last smile. I admire that and i would say u r the best. Be my angel if i happen to know u haha. Some people lives in a million smiles a day; good as well. Still beautiful though it's just a fake smile. If i dun remember wrongly, smiles affect ur family, words from ur mouth affect people around. Remember to smile at least in the surrounding of ur family. It can light up their lives and urself also. Oh other hands, some people even doesn't generalise their smiles, but rather limit thier smiles to sth haha. Sound beautiful to me when i'm thinking of it. Those idiots say they smile only in front of their girlfriens. U r good bastards then haha. Yeah overall, ur smiles are ur being characteristics, at least for mostly coz there happens sometimes u get an unconcious smile from a liar's joke haha.

Feelings and living characteristics are things that we should think about... i might have forgotten sometimes. so just wana remind everyone including myself of these... haha. i wana live for all by the way...

Forgive me!